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Why Egypt ? Why go all that way ....

here is an exerpt of Nicky and Bruces Introduction to this journey ...



Throughout all the centuries man has walked the earth, humans have endeavored to plumb the mysteries. The small traces of ancient cultures that have been left for us to see provide evidence of ritualistic behavior and pursuits of a spiritual nature. Even the more recent forebears of modern science, such as alchemists of yore, accepted and even relied upon the Great Unknowable. And then a new breed of scientist came along who felt confident that every aspect of this great universe was knowable and that the word “mystery” was merely a fancy way of saying “research incomplete.”

For about three hundred years the gulf between science and shamanism has widened, but now a new science is emerging, and the circle is becoming complete. Since the advent of quantum mechanics, scientists like cellular biologist Bruce Lipton are discovering, measuring, and concluding that there is a lot more going on than basic building blocks and Newtonian physics. Thoughts, beliefs, and even prayers can influence the wellbeing of our living cells! In fact, Dr. Lipton’s stem cell research conclusively points out that we are not bound by our genetic make-up as indelibly as previously thought. It turns out that the genome studies that created the central prevailing dogma didn’t take into consideration the presence of regulatory proteins when they determined the initial role of genes. These proteins control every aspect of gene activity in the process of how the blueprints that are the genetic codes actually manifest into the variously functioning cells of the body. When they are added to the equation, they explain how the codes are impacted by environmental signals.

I love how Bruce and I have come to the same conclusions about consciousness, self-empowerment, and the presence of an intelligent field, yet from seemingly contradictory directions. Yes, there is a place where matter ceases to exist, a place where all is energy. And yes, ones point of view or belief can be changed and that change can affect the energy. And yes, a change in the invisible field of energy will translate into a change in our physical world.

My passion is Egypt. Although I can speak with confidence on many subjects related to other cultures and healing modalities, I am forever finding connections and similarities to the ancient Egyptian mysteries, and the pantheon of the people of the Nile. It is this grand convergence that is enticing Bruce and me to co-facilitate a sacred pilgrimage to Egypt this spring. There, within the temples and monuments that eloquently express timeless truths that have somehow eluded most cultures of our time, we can directly experience her mysteries along with the essence of the “epi-genetic” possibilities of new science in action.

Epigenetics is the study of the molecular mechanisms by which environment controls gene activity, and is one of the most active arenas of current scientific research. The literal meaning of the word, epigenetics, is “control above genetics.” Research in this relatively new field shows us, according to Bruce, that “Genes are not destiny! Environmental influences, including nutrition, stress and emotions can modify those genes, without changing their basic blueprint. And those modifications can be passed on to future generations as surely as DNA blueprints are passed on via the Double Helix.”

In shaman-speak, I would say that we are informed at the cellular level by the field of intelligence that is the matrix within which all mater exists. I call it akasha. Wearing my Egyptian hat, I call it ka.

Why Egypt? Egypt is loud. Egypt is relevant. Nowhere on the planet have the ancients left such bold statements, built to last. The intention and purpose with which they imbued their monuments reverberates through time. When a person enters these sacred sites with an open heart and a presence of mind, they interact directly with the field that continues to inform the granite, or basalt, or sacred hieroglyphic images, or people, so that those who enter as seekers remember, and in so doing, are re-membered. As Bruce said on stage, “we all have receptors that relate to Egypt.”

Egypt connects us directly with the divine intelligence that is the field similar to what ancient Egyptians called the ka body. The ka is the subtle body commonly known as the etheric double. It is the collective soul and energetic connection with our ancestors, and it invigorates us with vital life force. It is the consciousness of the neteru, the deities of Egypt who are the archetypal divine principles that are woven into our very being, all the way into and surrounding our DNA.

Whereas Bruce speaks of The Field, I speak of Ka. We are saying the same thing, only now we each have more to say about our respective subjects. I’ m looking forward to taking him and our group to various temples, speaking of and doing ceremony, and then hearing his explanation of what just happened and what were the sciences involved in the creation and décor of these powerful places.

The more I learn, the more I am in awe of the pharaonic priest/scientists. The temples are more, much more than a pile of cleverly placed rocks. They have and hold a power; they are imbued with intent and with purpose. These creations are still alive, and adherents of the Field, as well as teachings of the Ka, will be able to explain the feelings we sense as we step into these chambers.

I’ve lost count of how many groups I’ve lead down the Nile. The one constant for all my participants, and for travelers and explorers throughout the ages who have been to Egypt, are those ‘feelings.” They have been described as some of the great mysteries of that land. The word “mystery,” works for me, and I would add to it “more research welcome.”

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Egypt

  • Apr. 21st, 2008 at 11:22 AM
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2 days to go -- my packing is somewhat haphazard and I suddenly have this urge to wear pink or purple ..so be spending the last couple of dyes hanging over the washing machine dyeing everything in sight purplish pinkish ... grin

A couple of people have asked about my journey .. so here is a rough itinerary of where I am going to be ...

Day 2, Saturday, April 26 — Arrive Cairo:

   I will be arriving 3 days earlier as I  feel I would like some time alone at the
giza plateau

Day 3, Sunday, April 27: —  Sakkara/Old Kingdom Tombs

Introduction of blending the ancient Egyptian Mysteries with the latest scientific discoveries
private visit to the world’s oldest freestanding stone structure, the step pyramid at Sakkara, which was masterminded by Imhotep, the renown vizier and architect to King Djoser (Dynasty III). This magnificent complex includes other Old Kingdom tombs and a temple of sound and healing, and is a perfect place to begin our spiritual work.
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Day 4, Monday, April 28: Giza Plateau/Sphinx/Kan Bazaar


We will begin this day with an amazing sunrise visit to the Giza Plateau, paying our respects to the Sphinx, the Guardian of the Mysteries.
We will have a meeting and continue our discussions with Bruce and Nicki. We then have lunch before heading into Cairo to the colorful Khan el Khalili Bazaar for a late afternoon of fun and shopping. At the end of the day we make our way to the train station. Our train leaves at 8pm for an overnight journey to Aswan

Day 5, Tuesday, April 29: Aswan/Temple of Khnum

felucca sail to visit Elephantine Island for a special initiation at the temple of Khnum.

Day 6, Wednesday, April 30: Isis Temple at Philae

private sunrise meditation and visit to receive the blessings of Isis at her beautiful island temple at Philae. This isle represents a fusion of three great civilizations – Egyptian, Greek and Roman – and the presence of Isis is palpable as we visit her Birth room inside her temple.

Day 7, Thursday, May 1: Aswan/ Nile cruise/Kom Ombo/Edfu

visit the temple of Sobek the crocodile god of strength, fortitude, fertility and rebirth and Horus the son of Isis and Osiris. We continue sailing to Edfu, where we will have a special private night visit to the Temple of Horus, one of the most beautifully preserved in Egypt.

Day 8, Friday, May 2: Nile Cruise

Full day sail on the magical Nile to Luxor. This afternoon we will meet on deck or in one of the lounges to bind our circle with sharing and processing of our experiences as we luxuriate on deck enjoying the timeless Nile beauty.

 

Day 9, Saturday, May 3: Tombs of the Pharaohs/Luxor

Luxor lies on the site of Thebes, the capital of Egypt at its height. The West Bank holds the tombs of the pharaohs and queens, and some of the most spectacular funerary temples including Der el Bahari the funerary temple of the female pharaoh Hatchepsut. We will also visit the mortuary temple of Ramses III at Medinet Habu. This evening is free for you to explore the wonders of Luxor’s market

Day 10, Sunday, May 4: Karnak /Sekhmet

In the early hours of the day we will have a special visit to Dendera where you will visit the exquisite temple dedicated to Hathor, the goddess of love and joy. Here we will experience a ceremony on her rooftop where Hathor priests and priestesses gathered for their celebrations thousands of years ago. We then continue north to the temple at Abydos, dedicated to Osiris. This temple rests next to and above the most ancient Osirion, one of the premier power places on the planet. It includes a more recent temple built by Seti I, which contains the most beautiful bas reliefs of any temple in Egypt.

Day 12, Tuesday, May 6: Luxor /Evening visit to Luxor Temple

We will meet this morning for continuing discussion/lectures with Nicki and Bruce, after which you will enjoy a day of leisure to explore Luxor or to reconnect with or revisit any of the sites your soul is calling you back to. .  We will meet in the early evening for our visit to the Luxor Temple.

Day 13, Wednesday, May 7: Cairo/Egyptian Museum

This evening we will have the rare treat of an exclusive private visit to the famed Egyptian Museum from where we will be able to observe the exquisite artifacts at our leisure and ponder the mysteries of this incredible civilization


Day 14, Thursday, May 8:  Great Pyramid/ King’s Chamber

We will gather later in the day before our special after hours private visit in the Great Pyramid with a culminating initiation in the King’s chamber.


Day 15, Friday, May 9:

Free day to explore Cairo and Free afternoon to shop or horseback ride or revisit sites or shopping before our Farewell dinner and final closing circle


I will travel back to England on the 11th of May

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These are the amazing people who will lead this tour,
Shamanic Journey Practitionaer Nicky Scully who works with Alchemical Healing and Egyptian Mysteries as well as Bruce Lipton  who is a cell biologist and 
the author The Biology of Belief: Unleashing the Power of Consciousness, Matter and Miracles. His isterests lie in stemcell research and the amazing evidence that uncovers receptors in the cells that receive signals form "self"  bridging the gap between science and spirit.


This magical adventure joins science and spirituality to provide a deeper experience of the Mystery School rites of passage we experience in the monuments and temples of Egypt. Bruce brings his extensive scientific background in cellular biology, quantum physics, and consciousness to provide a scientific context for the initiatory processes that Nicki directs. Together they will lead you through a mystical weaving of science, spirit, and the shamanic magic of ancient Egypt.


... I feel so blessed to have this opportunity to once again walk amongst those sacred places which hold an amazing energy and be introduced to people who share my passion for the personal journey of growing in consciousness.

... Cant wait ...Milliande







 

 

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Mangaged to Edit the video - albeit discovering  somewhat dubious camera handling in the middle ... giggle , hope it can be made out alright ... that comes from sitting on the floor and wriggling ...


If you hop over to the Milliande website you can see a bit more instructions on what pepers where used and how etc .. here

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Here is a picture of the finished ATC Trading Cards -- Ready for Sticks and Stones Swap




... Milliande




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Testing phone

  • Apr. 17th, 2008 at 12:13 PM
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This would be cool when I to to Egypt posting from my phone - let's try


ohhh it works ... I can post directly from my phone .. lets try it with a picture :-))

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Hmm picture not coming through -- working on it ???
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My first ATC Swap

  • Apr. 17th, 2008 at 11:44 AM
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ATC are Artist trading Cards ... little pieces of art --- the only rule is that they have to fit a standard format of 2.5x3.5 inches ... the
rest is up to the Artist..

I usually find I dont need prompts or inspiration as my head is rattling away with a million and one ideas anyway... but i thought it is time to try something different .. I was wondering how it feels to work to another persons prompt.

So I found a prompt and a swap that I felt drawn too ... "Sticks and Stones" A Fascination with Natures Elements ...

I took a photograph of one of my woodcarvings where I had added a little crystal egg in one of the hollows. I printed the photograph on acetate and paper

I then created 6 ATCS all with the same image as a central design but each with a different transfer technique and pen and ink drawings on top ...

I had never worked on ATC's before and found the small size to be just perfect for me.. i love miniture art and fine details anyway so I may have found a new favourite here ...



I did take a video of how I did it ... have not had time to edit it yet .. might get a chance later


.... Milliande
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Gardening by the Moon

  • Apr. 17th, 2008 at 10:30 AM
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I have decided to try something new this year - gardening by observing the cycles of the moon .

I bought this book "In Tune with the Moon"  in the USa it think its "Raising with the Moon"

.. " The phases of the moon have a direct influence on us, from the way we express ourselves and our physical energy levels to the best time to embark on new projects ... "

So according to the Lunar Planner yesterday was a most suitable day for planting fruiting vegetables... so put the tomaoes in the greenhouse, planted some mangetout and sugar snap peas, and tried an experiment with growing a courgette in the greenhouse .. it is still pretty cold here in england .. and the weather is undergoing some quite drastic temperature changes... so have cuddled the new vegetables nice and cosy .. hopefully they will settle in nicely ....





A Pixie in the Garden


Lettuce Harvest in the Greenhouse - I like to pick the leaves as they are young .. with a little fresh coriander



First Sprouting Broccoli Head Appearing - Planted last autumn ...



This one is going to be planted on a flower day -- according to the moon planting calender.. I love daisy like flowers




... Milliande
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Milliande Creativity Club

  • Apr. 17th, 2008 at 10:04 AM
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I am really exited to be able to connect with a bunch of amazing women artists and walk alongside them discovering the joys of artistic expressions ..



Have had lots of really moving comments about my Youtube Art Videos I decided to open a Space where Creative Women can come  and be in each others company, learning, playing and growing together ... so the Milliande Creativity Club was birthed ...

It is still in its fledgling stages but within a week has attracted 60 women and I soo look forward to the journey it will take..


... Milliande
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Calmness - Art Journal Prompt

  • Apr. 17th, 2008 at 9:26 AM
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Calmness ... an art journal prompt that resonated and I went to create a journaling page for it








I like the way it came out , the anticipation with the oncoming storm almost palpable ..

I wonder why it resonated and what lies ahead ... :-)

Preparing for egypt, less than a week to go, getting exited

... Milliande
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Egypt

  • Mar. 22nd, 2008 at 12:48 AM
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Ah Synchronicities ... I had no intention of travelling to Egypt this year and then a whole little set of teasing connecting moments in time tempted me once again ... and Yes I have booked my flights :-)

This time I am off to travel a with Nicky Scully, she is  Shamanic Alchemical Healing teacher and organises this trip together with Bruce Lipton  whose work on quantum physics is really making my heart sing ...cant wait to meet him

He was a "pure" scientist " who has done work in stem cell research for years when he happened upon an amazing fact .. stem cells  have a variety of receptors for proteins, fats and other chemicals and as found out by scientist they have a "self receptor" that determines the cells identity ... so he concluded that if the stem cell has a self receptor that means that which it receives - ie its identity it's soul , it's Self lies outside of the cell ... in the microcosmos/macrocosm analysis therefore the humans identity, soul , self  " resides" and is received from outside of the body .... amazing ..  We are soo large, so vast, such a wonderfully beautiful Big Oneness Being  ...

There is a little podcast on Nicky Scully site on an interview about his findings and the upcoming trip
Bruce Lipton Podcast


In preparation for the trip I have been getting a lot of images in my meditations, some are starting to make some sense others still elude me at this time ... but I love the visual metaphors and the way it all unravels in time ..

Here some of the images and symbols I received in various meditations , then put together in an artwork as they appeared on the canvas ...



... Cant wait til April .... this is going to be my 3rd time in Egypt and the energies of the
is ancient  land are just soo amazing, sitting by the Nile watching it rushing by with immense power seems to transport  me somewhere magical everytime ...

... Milliande
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Incubating

  • Mar. 22nd, 2008 at 12:19 AM
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It has been awhile since I have posted here, not been much in the mood for blogging.

Got an issue of the  "Artful Blogging " Magazine at Bladerubber store in London yesterday and got all inspired again ...

Been creating lots of art but somehow still stearing away from being able to create anything that requires me to pick up a project again a few days after I started - it seems that I cant  rekindle and reunite with the energy that inspired me to create a piece in the first place...

I need to finish it when I start an art project  ... it sort of escapes me otherwise ...

So there are a lot of canvas pieces sadly looking at me awaiting my attention but to me they seem like "people " I once knew but can no longer remember the name off ...

But it is fun to work on larger canvas , me enjoying the miniature details ... the larger canvas taps into a different area of my wiring altogether ... but I have yet to finish one of those pieces ...

Went to a great art workshop last week reconnecting with the Inner Child , tapping into lots of issues which made me stop creating art for nearly 15 years... The one pivotal moment was when my father commented on one of my paintings I did age about 11 and he said "That's Cheating " because I had traced an outline through the light at the window and then colored it in and added my own details etc... in his eyes that did not count and was "cheating " .. I did not touch any art after that for years and it still to this day affects how I feel at times when I judge or evaluate my own work...


I feel like I am waiting for a birth of some sort ... like incubation or preparation energy .. my recent art seems to connect to that sort of undercurrent ...








it feels good to be back here writing again ...

.. Milliande




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Response

  • Jan. 8th, 2008 at 10:20 AM
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Is Response a Creation in itself?

Is all creation responding to something ?

What about Original Creation?

Where does Authenticity get its inspiration from ?

Doing a lot of Art at the moment and contemplating the various art definitions that circle around the term of visionary art ...

People like to label things ...labeling things allows for communicating an essence .. as long as the words are not taken as literal but merely as a skirting along the concept ...

So Art as a Reaction and Art as an Action ....

hmmmm
...Milliande
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Being Seen

  • Dec. 5th, 2007 at 11:28 PM
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It is a feeling I carry around with me at the moment that I am totally invisible.
And out of the feeling follows a projection of making an effort to be seen.

~ The nature of the internet allows one to hide whilst being seen.
~ It feels like a double edged sword , like a false sense of achievement, og belonging yet
not truly belonging.

~ Aloness is the overriding emotion for me at this time ... aloness with a combination
of knowing that I can never be alone as i am part of all that is... yet the feeling that is 
experienced by "me " is one of total difference ..

~ I am soo different to everybody I know , there is beauty in difference yet also incredible longing
for kin emerges when living with the difference becomes too much to bear...

~ I am amazed with what ease some people swimmingly move through groups of people
being able to smoothly mingle their energy with that of the whole/group

~ Whilst i am constantly on the lookout for familiarity, something that strikes a cord 
deep within me where i see potential to meet a kin-energy..

~ I am amazed at my own fast "judgement" in a non-judgemental way ...aka I dont judge people to be right or wrong per se , just right or perceived wrong for me...  how ignorant am I really... hmmmm

~ I really usually feel my way around but this ends up with me either projecting a "larger" lifelike happy soul of the party ..whilst inside watching this other me crumbling at the sight of my own "false" projection

~ Yet there is no such thing as a "false" me, just another aspect of me... time to own up to that one too before i can let go ....  ah what it means to be authentic

Authenticity  -- the dance with the archetypes  


...hmmm Milliande

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Contemplating Originality

  • Dec. 3rd, 2007 at 7:08 PM
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Contemplating Original ~ Originality ~ Origin

~ A pool of consciousness
~ emerging out of the pool of bandaged faces
~ unravelling the larger "me"
~ bound to the pool by an invisible thread
~ tickled by the feather of flight
~ fired by unknown
~ seen by the origin
~ watching my own originality emerging
~ watching myself contemplating
~ being aware of being aware


  
 



... Milliande

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Art Journaling and Self Expression

  • Nov. 29th, 2007 at 4:32 PM
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How to Art Journal ... spiritual journaling... creative outpourings... art for arts sake....
hmm I am beginning to get a taster for this youtubing.....

...Milliande

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Quest-ioning

  • Nov. 29th, 2007 at 4:07 PM
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Pondering the nature of my enquiries posed to me as a line of  "inquiry" by  "</a></font></b></a>[info]revolutemind 
some creative forms investigating the nature of my own quest-ioning
found their way  onto the pages of my art journal ... and a nod and thanks to </a></b></a>[info]willowing  for the kick up the ass
to pick up my art journal, dust of my camera  and start Youtubing ...yeahh

take a peek if you like...


...Milliande
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Omnidirectional Movement

  • Nov. 27th, 2007 at 9:04 AM
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Continuing Contemplation of Movement of Self ....
 
So I am being asked ...

>>>>>>Do you actually prefer to be made to move? Or is there another choice?~
This is quite a trick question, by the way.
Cuts on either edge. And on the handle too, and even if left alone.<<<<<<

Do I prefer to be "made to move"

By anything other than "perceived me" ?

In essence movement can only occur on a timeline ...

If I want to move I need a reference point...

If I am all that is... and there is only one... then there is no movement possible..

If "All that is" wishes to experience itself then it needs to have a reference point ...something that is not "All that is", that it can compare itself too in order to experience itself..

So lets assume "individualized" humans are not aware of the Whole "Source", manifesting as something that is not aware of its totality , leaving "Source" to experience "lesser parts" of itself.

Within that manifestation of "me" is movement .. perceived movement from a to b...

Do I prefer to be "made to move" from a to b....

I wish to experience conscious movement, movement that arises as an action rather than a reaction..

I venture to say that I usually move as a reaction ... reaction to bodily or sensory input, react because of social conditioning, react out of fear, ....

So how do I recognise when a movement is caused by "action" .... Intuition ? Instinct?
But are they not based on prior experience too...

Pondering
...Milliande

 











 
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Travelling the Inner Eye Train

  • Nov. 24th, 2007 at 9:17 AM
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~~~~~~~~~

I am a piece
shuffle me around
so I may fit

I am piece
shuffled
I fit

I am
I fit

I


~~~~~~~~~




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The Habitual Onion

  • Nov. 23rd, 2007 at 10:41 PM
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My Habit programs ( those things that I do habitually without necessarily being consciously aware of it ) 
 take on the visual shape of an onion. Here NOW I am wearing an apron and slowly peeling of each layer with tears in my eyes. I dont know how I have come to grow so many layers and i am certain that there is a juice fruit underneath these brittle skins somehwere..

I am being asked  "Where do we begin to build our own consciousness?"

I venture to say that I took my first breath with my "original" blueprint intact and spend the next 2 years lalling about unable to express my knowing and finally had all conscious awareness drummed out of me by fitting into the expectations of my parents...

The first breath is mine, the rest is a lesser degree of mine until I no longer know what mine means .
Then I become aware of my onion, only to start wearing goggles whilst peeling my onion so as not to be too overwhelmed by the outpouring of my tears... Some people may call this awakening..

until I am brave enough to take of my googles and to embrace my tears... and go hunting for my original blueprint in the depths of my Self...

...Milliande
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Tongue Teasers

  • Nov. 23rd, 2007 at 6:32 PM
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I must ~ I should ~ I ought to ~ I need to ...

I am amazed how many times these words find their way into daily conversations without consciously looking at their origin.

I must wash my armpits in the morning... I walk into the bathroom and almost automatically start my morning washing routine. I am intriqued to notice, as if for the first time , how I actually do it, how the toothbrush feels in my hand , how I follow a certain sequence and I wonder for what reason it has established itself. Who was the first person to tell me that "I need to wash my armpits " in the morning .. it was most likely my mother .

And who told her that one needs to wash ones armpits in the morning... and how can one follow that back ... I dont think in the 1800 did they have some such concerns.. I believe a little talcum powder was all that was deemed appropriate.

I am trying to step out of my own routine consciously ~ and invite original action into its place ...
~ I consciously choose to be aware of using my left hand to open a door instead of my usual right.
~ I consciously choose to step into my knickers with the opposite foot then what I would usually do.
~ I take a right turn where I previously always turned left... and the world suddenly seems a little bit more intense, a little brighter a little bit more colourful ... it bites me to say " hey I am alive.

I am intriqued to observe how I eat too...

 

I love eating different kinds of foods from my plate, prepare them in a certain manner -- like a little potato, add a carrot and and dip in into sauce before taking it into the mouth... then taste BUT now I watch what happens...
~my conscious awareness wanders from the bite just savoured for merely a second ..to pay attention to the preparation of the next spoonful....
~But I am still eating the first one, only now with much less attention, much less conscious tasting of what I am actually trying to savour...

~~ For me this is greed, this is ego setting in and already running away from the HERE AND NOW ..to the next moment in time,
I have often heard that one has to eat slowly to digest properly etc... but it has not occurred to me until now that to eat slowly is actually the real food blessing
~ to pay attention to what nurtures me and in what way.. how it tastes, what textures it offers me and how it lingers on my tastebuds....

But rushing times, things to do ,places to go take me away from the simple awareness of being aware what is in my mouth...

So I try it... only to catch myself lots and lots of times getting carried away in a conversation, my attention wondering off and my mouthfuls dissappearing into a world of their own...

~~ I am really enjoying watching my own limitations... watching myself develop awareness and loosing it over and over again..

With one simple difference -- I am now aware that I am actually loosing awareness and can bring myself back to center.. It feels like a little bit of a dance .. Two steps forward one steps back -- twist and turn ...
Dancing with Ms Awareness .. giggle 
 

...Milliande

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How to Be ?

  • Nov. 23rd, 2007 at 5:01 PM
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 Contemplating..

~ Lets say I am aware of being part of something larger than myself.
Lets call this "something" God, All That Is ,... fill in the blank .. I shall use Source.
I am aware that I am part of Source, and Source in essence is me.
Without me source is now Source minus me .
That is not possible as Source is all that is.
I cannot be seperate from me.
So I am Source, I am God, I am all that is .

~ Now I am aware that my reason for being here on earth is to experience this state of being.
I am simply here to be all that I am.
There is nowhere to go, nothing to do, nothing to achieve, there is simply being.
Being that arises from within.
Being in the NOW.
Experiencing the NOW.
No desire to change that what is, THAT is all that is.

So I contemplate this :

~ What is it that makes me move?
What makes me get up in the morning?
What makes me move from a to be ?

~Movement contains as a starting point the desire to change..
Change my position from a to b

~What makes me want to change if I am simply experiencing the NOW, with no desire to move away from it.
Where does my impulse to move come from?

I cannot see ...
I am contemplating my non awareness ...

I feel immobile whilst i am contemplating, curious about  my own desires and the inability to see how I can be, simply be...

What do you see?
What makes you move ?

...Milliande


 
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Going Deeper

  • Nov. 23rd, 2007 at 3:27 PM
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~ I am currently reading "Going Deeper" by Jean Claude Coven a fascinating study into the nature of consciousness.

~ I am intriqued by my own archetypal forces that drive my day to day decisions without "me" being consciously aware of it. Having read Caroline Myss "Sacred Contracts" the concept of archetypes has been a part of my life for a while now. Yet I find it quite astonishing how tricky it is to "nail an archetype" down, ie identify myself with it when the Controller archetype does its best to shield me from anything it perceives to be threatening.. 

~ Lets take the prostitute archetype... according to Myss everybody has got one..
At first the controlling archetype within me says no way... only to discover the true meaning of this archetype later... The Prostitute relates to my price... At what price am I willing to sell my soul.... At what price am i prepared to budge from my original blueprint...

~ this is a hard question to face... from birth one has been predisposed to a certain set of rules, "Should's and Should'nts"  the essential nature of oneself being molded by parents and society into preconcieved ideas of being.
So what I do "to fit in" may already be far of from my original blueprint, may already be a kind of selling of my soul , me " prostituting myself" in order to be loved, liked, fit in , be respected etc...

~ When I started this journey of awareness it came like a rush... like a deluge that would not take no for an answer... Now 3 years later i am at a point where it has started to slow down, where now instead of running towards something I am going deeper and deeper within myself. And it is dark in there.

~ I started to be less and less comfortable in "selling my soul" , my prostitute archetype is receiving a regular battering.
I cannot say something I dont mean.
I cannot pretend something that I do not feel.
I can no longer be silent when I dont agree.
I cannot be somehwere that does not feel right.
I cannot do something easily which does not feel joyful. 
I cannot even "prostitute" myself for me, my preceived ideas of what I should be doing to get xyz...

~ It makes being me  very lonely though, kin that have a certain awareness themselves and are living that awareness to the full are not easily found . Old friends find the "new me" strangely weird but have been trying their best to "accomodate" my weirdness for the past 4 years.

~Yet they don't nurture that side of me that constantly strives to go deeper. That would like to be stimulated by others to go deeper. That would like to be inspired by those who are walking "the path" with gusto themselves.. I know they are out there... I know with every fibre of my being that I am not alone.. Not alone in amongst all these people aroung me.

~Yet solitude is often my only refuge.. travelling dimensionally and retreating into a sacred space of conscious communication with that which is larger than myself provides the nurturing I need to maintain my "sane Self" walking upon this earth at this time

~ So no , I shall not sell my soul.. I shall just continue to be... be as I am and journal that state of being.....

Milliande
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The Impossibility of Being Me

  • Nov. 23rd, 2007 at 2:17 PM
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Contemplating...

~To ponder the mere existence of a seperated "Me" , something that is not part of the whole, yet totally cannot exist without the whole is a like a dance with awareness .

~ Many times a day i manage to get a glimpse , seconds of meeting that which is larger than simply myself, which I am totally part of yet exist in no particular awareness of.  An awareness of the whole , of source of being part of everything that is seems to be the driving force behind existence once my awakening to the mysteries took place.

~ But this drive comes at a price.. my inability at times to integrate a "normal" day to day lifestyle into the intense thoughts my head is driving me to explore...
~An inability to listen to my friends talk about the latest bargains in the sales, the current gossip or the perceived problems with various members of their families...
~I simply cannot bear to listen to it any longer.... I crave stimulating discussions, conversations with people who are equally intrigued by their own set of mysteries , people that are yearning to explore the inner crevices of themselves.... people who are like me... who are me... who are  becoming more and more aware..

An Invitation .. An Intention

I am opening myself up to meeting kin ...
I am looking forward to meeting those people which will stimulate and intrique my senses
I am intriqued to encounter those people which inspire me to go deeper into my own crevices...
I am inviting in those people which are most beneficial to me at this time...

I kindly ask the  universe take care of the how ....

Milliande 

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